i’ve noticed that i’m actually kind of bad at keeping up with writing here, but it’s not because i don’t want to. i have this weird thing that i battle in my mind all the time that makes me believe that if i write too much, especially about my cancer journey, then i’ll somehow jinx myself & bad things will happen—totally not true, i know, but it’s something i often think about.
anyway, a lot has happened since i last updated you all on what’s going on with me. i don’t really know where to start, but i’ll list somethings:
- my PET/CT scans came back all clear! this means that my cancer has not spread beyond the breast & that was the best news that i could have ever asked for!
- i shaved my head & that was really hard, scary, & sad…but i’m getting used to it.
- i bought a really awesome wig that looks very similar to my natural hair!
- i am half-way done with the ‘tough’ chemo! this means that i have 2 out 4 of the hard stuff done, then i’ll begin the 12 final (God willing) treatments of another type of chemo medicine.
for now, that’s really all i can think of. i’m trying my best to just live my life as me, and not as just a cancer patient. there is a whole lot more to me & my life than having cancer, even though it takes up the majority of my life…right now, anyway.
i really do have the best support system—friends + family, God, & the best dog ever! i really couldn’t do this without the love that i receive on a daily basis. i’m also learning so much about myself that i never would have taken the time to learn because i was always living so fast-paced. i was always thinking ahead & planning, worrying, wondering… it’s no wonder God said please slow down. i have learned that i need to live in the present moment, give thanks at all times, for every moment, because each day truly IS a blessing. i could go on & on, reciting generic quotes that you’d find on Pinterest about how “no one promises you tomorrow”, but we should all know that by now. it’s just a matter of living out that truth & making a conscious effort to be present.
thank you all for your love, prayers, cards, emails, letters, & kindness. it truly makes my day!